Pinch me.

This can't be real life. I'm like...graduating!

I can't believe that this weekend is already here! New Years was hard enough to believe- how did we get to 2012 so fast?! Weren't we just in the 90's? But now...it's June?! Already.
June 2012 was a month that has been a big milestone mark we've had in front of us for like...ever. And it seemed so far away, but here I sit in it!
Yes, this time of year feels familiar, cause I've done it several times before- but what I can't wrap my mind around is that this time...it's me. I still go through out my day, hanging with my friends, feeling like it's just another day in the life of an MK until I stop and realize...this time next week, she won't be here any more- yikes!
Yesterday I went to the river...no, it can't be my last time out there.
Tonight is Grad dessert night...that dress hanging there can't possibly be for ME.
Tomorrow is Tissue Sunday at Soul Purpose...it can't actually be my last one ever.
Tuesday is Graduation...I'm just confused thinking that I'll be the one on that stage.
Wednesday the goodbye's begin...nope. This must all be a dream. Wednesday morning as that plane takes off, someone will pinch me and I'll wake up before the nightmares begin...right? Please?

In all seriousness, the reality of all this really isn't sinking in. I know it in my head, but right now my heart won't accept what this all means.
I did go through a grieving stage a couple weeks ago, so I don't know if I'm at peace now because I've already been through this, or I'm just still in denial.
I havn't really packed up my room yet, like most of my friends, cause I'm staying here longer after grad, so this all feels normal to me. I pulled out a suitcase and put it in my room, just so I could start getting the idea.

But I know there are still lots of fun things going on the next couple weeks...and great things waiting in the States. I'm just not ready to have to face all these goodbyes.
 I'm trying to live as much as I can in this very moment. Drinking in every ounce I can. Capturing memories and living all 60 seconds of each minute.
We're in a race against the clock and we just can't run fast enough.

I don't know when it will hit, but I know when it does...it'll hit hard.
Prayers appreciated :)