I know it has been 9 months and more has happened than I can ever retell, so in a sense I feel guilty and odd not picking up where I left off, but I think as I unfold what is going on now, a lot of that will be tied in.
But honestly, the past 9 months have been so hard, yet so good but I really was not at a place in my life where I was able to open up and put myself out there in the middle of it all. I retreated as I went into my inner most being and wrestled with things in my life and my depths, was challenged daily and have grown so very much. Not to use the overdone metaphor but I feel like I have been in the state of a cocoon the past year, and slowly but surely I am breaking out. And I think that I am coming to the point that I am ready to come to the empty screen once again and put my heart out there again. I have found a new sense of confidence and am ready to share the things God has put on my heart.
I actually attempted to start another blog while I was absent, but it just was not working out and I realized (as weird as it sounds), that this is sort of my "first love". The place I first enjoyed writing and put my little high school thoughts out there and tried to contrive eloquent sentences. This blog holds memories and little pieces of gold within all the mumbo jumbo that in a strange sense, it's a little piece of me. My dear friend started a blog this weekend and I was reminded of the joy I found in it.
So here I am.
I updated my background because I needed something fresh and new, and being the intentional woman that I am I chose this one for more that just it's beauty factor. I could have gone with the MK typical map, or the symbolic footprints, but I think this background represents my life right now. It's messy and a little crazy and you can't totally make sense of it...but that is who I am- my life is messy and God works through that to form the beautiful. I'm full of memories and moments that all make up the complex being of who I am- like a kaleidoscope that God perfectly orchestrated. It's beautiful in its own way, that only the creature can fully see.
So here again are pieces of my heart, my thoughts, and my testamony of how God is making something beautiful out of a mess.
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