don't worry...

Matthew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Matthew 11:28
"Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest."

Philippians 4:6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, with transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Philippians 4:13
"I can do all things through him who gives me strength."

The day break officially hit I was thrilled to be free! To just be bored...relax...not worry about anything. But quickly I realized it felt like I still had responsibilities hanging over my head...weighing me down. I tried to attend to them, but it still wouldn't go away. Yesterday I became overwhelmed with stress and worry, just about life. I made a break "to do" list (which I usually live by) and was not thrilled to see it longer then I had hoped. But it is nice to have it all written out so I can make a plan of attack.

I think a lot of the stress and anxiety is from having so much on my mind...just about my future, about finishing things up here, planning events and over-analyzing things.
The other part is that this last semester, though it was fast, wore me out. This semester wasn't overloaded like semesters I've had in the past, but it just took more out of me emotionally, psychologically, spiritually...therefore physically. Much of it comes from being SRC President...which I knew would be a big task when I took it on...and this break I still have a lot of planning to do. We are going to Lae at the beginning of January to drop off good at the Hospital, which we raised the money for at carnival.
And then there is college. I really was hoping to make it into this one, but everything got put on hold because of 1)slow mail 2)needing to prove I'm a US citizen and 3)them being gone for holidays. I try to trust God, but I'm starting to become anxious. Starting to finish off other applications. Everyone else is getting excepted everywhere...why not me?! And I need to apply for scholarships. As I said once...I like to have the future planned and known to me, so I'm feeling very out of control.
There's the little things, like Christmas presents, planning a monologue for play auditions, sorting through all my accumulated junk, preparing to help with the VBS, etc. and it's all built up.
And then I worry that because I am busy this break that I won't get rested and next term is going to be SUPER busy and I wonder if I'll survive. All this worrying is making me worry! I need to be set free!!

I looked up these verses because I needed to remind myself to NOT WORRY!!
God is showing me not to worry, not to stress, to take it one day at time, rely on HIS strength, stay focused, and keep pushing on.
I'm still not totally free from all this anxiety but I'm working at it slowly. (and then the phone rings and I'm reminded of another thing I need to do....haha it really just did)
If you're the praying type, I would appreciate if you sent up a little prayer for me. Thanks!! <3
(sorry this was kind of a venting session)