I woke up this morning, ready to rush off into a day full of Christmas busyness and cheer, but as I got on my computer real quick before I got out of bed, my big brother popped up on skype. I thought I didn't have time to talk, but it ended up being a really special little chat, a real blessing, and a highlight to my long day. As we just "hung" and chatted about random things and I watched him play his guitar and sing songs he taught himself I was relaxed and content. He even "wrote" me a song on the spot...which led to a few tears as a wave of realization of how much I miss my big brothers hit. I love Christmas, but it still fills funny being the only child around at this time of year. I miss my big brothers as I know their stockings will hang empty, or I don't have an "annoying", playful brother who likes to move the wise men because "they're still on their journey" or rearrange the advent calendar or having to bribe them into decorating the Christmas tree by holding the cookies for ransom...little things like that.
So I was looking as a couple pictures of Christmas' past and reminisced of the good ol' days...of way back when, and more recently.

Christmas 1995...when we were cute :)

Christmas 2009...our last Christmas together.

This is one of the down sides of being an MK...so far from much of my family.
I would be happy to think that next year there is a chance that I can be with my brothers for Christmas, but my hear breaks slightly as I realize I won't be with my parents :( How will I survive? SOMEDAY we'll all be together again for the holidays. hmmm...I don't know if I like this growing up thing :P
I use to thing my brothers were big, mean and annoying but I don't anymore. ;) Being apart 1 1/2+ years makes me realize I might of taken em for granted, and love & cherish our special memories together. I also love watching you grow into men. I'm a proud little sis :)

"I'm just sitting on my bed doing nothing
but it makes me happy and I'm fine with that
so I'll talk to my Leslie looo
BECAUSE I love youuuu!" -Nathan Walker <3 up coming song writer ;) jk