the Lord determines his steps...

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps" -Proverbs 16:9

I'm one of those people who have to have everything all planned out...I like to know what's going to happen in the future, when it'll happen, how, where, etc. I hate the unknown, and can't stand when I know there is a surprise coming...I'm just impatient like that. Call me crazy, but I spend much of my time playing out scenes in my mind of how I think, or unrealistically hope, a scene will play out. Often times I wish I could just get a glimpse down the road so I know what is coming so I could just be more content in the now, knowing...but I realize that even if I got a sneak peak, I wouldn't be happy.
As my time here in PNG is wrapping up there is a lot of events for my mind to make "mini-movies" out of. Graduation, for instance, or my trip back to the U.S. I've always struggled with being in the "now" as I quickly switch back and forth from strolling down memory lane and dreaming about the future.
Back to what I was saying at the beginning...right now I'm going through the whole process of applying to colleges, picking my major...planning my future. I just want to know!! Where will I find myself this time next year?
So I often have to bring my mind back to Proverbs 16:9. I posted it on the bulletin board that had all my college info on it when I started my search. It's comforting to know that God while guide my steps to exactly where I need to be. I guess knowing that I can rest more comfortably in the now because I don't have to worry about every little detail about my future and that I'll end up at the wrong place.

On the topic of colleges...I've applied to 2 and 1/2. Cedarville University = accepted :) 1/2 = Bryan...I still have to turn in my not finished essay and reference forms. But my real desire, at this point, is to go to Lee University in Tennessee. I just got word the other day (after not hearing from them for a long time) that I need to turn in a "proof of citizenship". This was kinda disheartening because I was really hoping to already hear back from them and this makes things complicated. Oh living in a 3rd world country...sigh. Anyways. I guess I just gotta keep trusting in my Lord and Savior and know that He has a guided path marked out for me. :)
Well signing off for now...hope you have a great day <3